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February 25, 2013 / another1ofthose

A long way from the dark

Looking back to where i was , and where i am at the moment, just 7 years after i shook hands with my inner gay, i find it very pleasant how my life turned out to be despite the fact that i still have loads of problems and a thousand times more thoughts and wishes to turn into reality.

7 years ago i was gay and there was only me in my dark little gay corner. I narrated to myself every day a little bedtime story about the gay guy who grew up and pursued his dream about becoming successful and free. Free from all the hate in the world, from all the prejudgments, from all the tyrant people, from all the fear, the oppression and the guilt.

7 gay years ago, i had no one but some random contacts on msn whom i didn’t know anything about to ease my troubling mind and my thirst for acceptance. Most were assholes, some were better assholes and i envy the few who tolerated me through my continuous insecure struggle.

But now, it no longer is 7  insecure, shitty gay years ago! it is just NOW. Now i am a better person, a more secure person, i am a ruler of my own being, my own person, my own thoughts. All thanks to my amazing friends whom i came out to and were supportive.

I did come a long way from where i have been, and i know i still have a lot to do and much more to go through, but at least I’m fighting for what i want and who i am.

so cheers to the haters and the homophobes, who made me tougher, the fundamentalists who made me seek the freedom of thought, the conservatives who made me seek progress, the liars who made me seek the truth. And cheers to my friends who accepted who i am, supported me and gave me hope for a better future, my perfectionist queen, my lovely princess and my crazy devilish witch.

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  1. basinbeirut / Mar 2 2013 10:45 PM

    Felt the same way. All those nights talking to random people on msn.

  2. aguywithoutboxers / Mar 26 2013 5:03 PM

    A great manifesto on coming out and making peace with yourself! Congratulations, my queer blogging brother on stepping forward, accepting who you are and being proud! Good job, man! 😉

    • another1ofthose / Mar 26 2013 9:49 PM

      thank you. glad you liked it

      • aguywithoutboxers / Mar 26 2013 9:54 PM

        🙂

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